Coping with Cadbury

So, my life has been in turmoil the past 7 weeks and it has been a real challenge for me. God is good at giving me challenges; it keeps me on my toes and I am not a ballerina so being on my toes is difficult for me. After the start of the New Year, I was on a roll! I was working on my website, researching new ways to do items on my bucket list, heck, I was even working out and eating pretty well in my annual “get fit for the new year” resolution.

The most impressive thing of all was that I was going to “break a bad habit” and for me, that meant giving up eating chocolate. I was so excited I found a hypnotism class to help me stop eating chocolate and I was really giving it the old college try. That was about when the bottom dropped out of my world and my mom got sick and then I had to cope with the profound and painful grief of losing her. So much for coping well. So much for giving up chocolate.

I don’t want to admit this, and it is taken me several weeks to even get the courage to sit down and attempt to write this post, but here it is. I have been coping with the stress of everything by eating Cadbury Eggs. My family and friends love me, so they haven’t been too hard on me about this, but I can’t even tell you how many of these mouthwatering gems I have eaten in the past 7 weeks. Friends have been telling me it looks like I am doing so well, they might not agree if they knew the whole story.

Officially my hypnotism class worked. I know this is confusing, but when I took the class I asked the instructor to zoom in on CHOCOLATE CHIPS for me. I even asked him to make chocolate chips taste like doggy do to me, somehow thinking this would cure me of the need for all forms of chocolate. It worked. I have hardly had a chocolate chip in weeks and I even have some in my pantry, which is the true test of my willpower.

The sad truth is that once my stress level soared to space station heights my coping without chocolate went right out the window.

My sister and I would leave the hospital after visiting our sick mother and head directly across the street to a Walgreens store only to leave minutes later with a fistful of Cadbury Eggs. Somehow the creamy milk chocolate would sooth our broken hearts for just a little while. We both needed all the help we could get. Walking through the isles of Walgreens in search of a somewhat healthy snack I veered off track and my eyes locked in on the row of shiny, colorful Cadbury Eggs and I was about as strong-willed as a bowl of Jell-O.

One of two of these golden eggs might not have been so bad, but this quickly became our daily routine. Soon my jeans didn’t fit, soon I felt sluggish and chronically fatigued. I had a lot going on, but I am sure the constant supply of chocolate through me veins did not help.

This week I decided I had to take control of this situation again. I had to do it and Mom would want me to. I am now swearing off chocolate again and walking away from all the refined white sugar. I am putting my workout clothes back on and stepping outside into the sunshine for some nice long walks. No more coping with Cadbury. I am going to give up this bad habit once and for all.

So my friend, I ask you “what’s next on your list?”

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  1. Don’t be too hard on yourself, hon. I was on the “Sparrow Hospital cookie diet” for over 2 years. When we grieve our bodies naturally turn to something comforting. In the grand scheme of things Cadbury Eggs are pretty harmless, especially since you are doing something about it and getting active again. I gave up all refined sugar and yeast for Lent, feeling better all the time… and I’ve lost 12 lbs too! Be gentle with yourself, allow your heart to grieve.

    Big Hugs!

  2. Sorry for your loss, inspiring post and kudos to you for being able to step away from the Cadburys (especially so close to Easter)!

    Next on my list? Swimming with stingrays in Cayman and exploring a cave in Belize! Yeh!

    • Bucketlistblogger says:

      Thanks Annette! I am so excited to hear about your next adventure! That sounds beyond amazing! Take tons of pictures and then come back and tell me all about it! I’d love to you have post pictures of your trip on our Facebook Fan Page!

      Next on my list-Self Defense Class! I missed dog sledding because I ended up out of town too much but I am working on scheduling fly fishing and hot air ballooning yet this spring!

      Warm Regards My Friend,